Long post but please read through to end. Oh well, where to begin? I am a relative newbie to your site, oh hell, truth be told, adult themed sites in general. I learned a week or so ago that for this evening you had scheduled a
I truly am sorry for having cancelled the members only show today.
Normally I’d post the cancellation in the members news on the main members page, but well, this one finger typing thing has really done me in. It’s my own fault though. And I’ve just been so upset. I’ll post links tomorrow to this I guess to subsitute as reason…
Thanks for sharing your experience. It brought me to tears.
I’ve been doing this raising my dad since I was a kid. Once I did it for my mother…when I was in intermediate, but that’s another story altogether, and has much to do with my dad.
My father and I went through that cycle when he divorced his second wife as well.
Twice he told me he was dying. He never did…I know now he did it for pity and I was the only one that fell for it while the rest of my siblings leaned on me for support and I took the blows.
Both of my mothers just shook their heads and waited to see what kind of person I’d be coming out of this.
Today, my mother said, "Sorry, I had to let you make your own judgements of him…it was your choice…not mine, he’s your father." That’s something his second wife hasn’t given my younger siblings.
I’m not a mean person, and it kills me to know that I’ve thrown family out of my house. But Ian reminds me that it was the best thing to keep my mind healthy. He’s run me dry…my heart hurts over and over.
To hear him today say that he was better than me was the final straw. The cycle ends here with me helping him out, but I just hope the hurt goes away soon…cause it reminds me of how much of a fool I really was.
I’m sorry you had to deal with your dad mooching off of you too, but I’m also sorry for your lost in the end.
That’s kind of why in the past I always stayed around…I felt I’d one day say that I’d give anything to talk to him one more time. Right now…right now, I can’t say I do, perhaps that will change with time as it always has in the past, but I know this time I wont do the things I did before…
A million thanks for sharing with me Chris.
I just need a moment to catch my breath and let my wrists heal before I tackle my site 100%.
Comment by DragonLily — November 23, 2004 @ 12:38 pm
Wow, get a load of you! A same day reply to my comment AND an announcement that you have rescheduled the
Long post but please read through to end. Oh well, where to begin? I am a relative newbie to your site, oh hell, truth be told, adult themed sites in general. I learned a week or so ago that for this evening you had scheduled a
Comment by Chris — November 23, 2004 @ 12:17 pm
I truly am sorry for having cancelled the members only show today.
Normally I’d post the cancellation in the members news on the main members page, but well, this one finger typing thing has really done me in. It’s my own fault though. And I’ve just been so upset. I’ll post links tomorrow to this I guess to subsitute as reason…
Thanks for sharing your experience. It brought me to tears.
I’ve been doing this raising my dad since I was a kid. Once I did it for my mother…when I was in intermediate, but that’s another story altogether, and has much to do with my dad.
My father and I went through that cycle when he divorced his second wife as well.
Twice he told me he was dying. He never did…I know now he did it for pity and I was the only one that fell for it while the rest of my siblings leaned on me for support and I took the blows.
Both of my mothers just shook their heads and waited to see what kind of person I’d be coming out of this.
Today, my mother said, "Sorry, I had to let you make your own judgements of him…it was your choice…not mine, he’s your father." That’s something his second wife hasn’t given my younger siblings.
I’m not a mean person, and it kills me to know that I’ve thrown family out of my house. But Ian reminds me that it was the best thing to keep my mind healthy. He’s run me dry…my heart hurts over and over.
To hear him today say that he was better than me was the final straw. The cycle ends here with me helping him out, but I just hope the hurt goes away soon…cause it reminds me of how much of a fool I really was.
I’m sorry you had to deal with your dad mooching off of you too, but I’m also sorry for your lost in the end.
That’s kind of why in the past I always stayed around…I felt I’d one day say that I’d give anything to talk to him one more time. Right now…right now, I can’t say I do, perhaps that will change with time as it always has in the past, but I know this time I wont do the things I did before…
A million thanks for sharing with me Chris.
I just need a moment to catch my breath and let my wrists heal before I tackle my site 100%.
Comment by DragonLily — November 23, 2004 @ 12:38 pm
Wow, get a load of you! A same day reply to my comment AND an announcement that you have rescheduled the
Comment by Chris — November 23, 2004 @ 1:06 pm